翻着我们的照片,

想念若隐若现,

去年的冬天,

我们笑得很甜,

看着你哭泣的脸,

对着我说再见,

来不及听见,你已走得很远,

也许你已经放弃我,

也许已经很难回头,

我知道自己错过,

请再给我一个理由,

说你不爱我,

就算是我不懂,

能不能原谅我,

请不要把分手当作你的请求,

我知道坚持要走是你受伤的藉口,

请你回头,

我会陪你一直走到最后,

就算没有结果,

我也能够随,

我知道你的痛,

是我给的承诺,

你说给过我笑容,

沉默是因为包容,

如果要走,

请你记得我,

如果难过,

请你忘了我.

- jaychou.

ohwellls. i'm dweling in junyan's house currently. got my class timetable and i was unfortunate enough to be the temporary CT reo post. wadahell. im not looking forward to it but heck. i'll see what i can do. (: my timetable sucks as well. my earliset day is like 310 ?! the latest ain't any fun as well.. i mean 520 lah! SO1 ends like at 430 for their latest day. boo hoo. i miss SO1. really really really really miss them. our dear horny club president SYFUL is gone with the wind. he goes where the chio bus lead him to. hee. oh no. our little tiny chews is in RJ in the hands of JOSHUA. OH NO. i pray nothing bad happens to her... ((:

i sprained my finger! bloody hell. then i go on and brave all dangers to play bball even though im invalid. wells. i guess being stupid means you'll have to be always prepared to suffer the unwelcomed consequences. too BAD. i made my injury worst. but at least it's not swollen like last week. oh wells.

i hope SO2 is as fun as SO1. PRAY.

sighs.

i miss SO1.

im ready to cry.

at least we'll be able to play bball lah.

i'll be optimistic.

cheers!

(:

luuuurve jay chou.

Yeah, ooooh...

We started as friends

But something happened inside me

Now I'm reading into everything But there's no sign you hear the lightning, baby

You don't ever notice me turning on my charm

Or wonder why I'm always where you are

I've made it obvious

Done everything but sing it (I've crushed on you so long, but on and on you get me wrong)

I'm not so good with words And since you never notice

The way that we belong

I'll say it in a love song

I've heard you talk about (Heard you talk about)

How you want someone just like me ( just like me)

But everytime I ask you out (Time I ask you out)

We never move pass friendly, no no

And you don't ever notice how I stare when we're alone

Or wonder why I keep you on the phone

I've made it obvious

Done everything but sing it (I've crushed on you so long but on and on you get me wrong)

I'm not so good with words And since you never notice

The way that we belong I'll say it in a love song

Yeah... You are my very first thought in the morning

And my last at nightfall

You are the love that came without warning

I need you, I want you to know

I've made it obvious

So finally I'll sing it (I've crushed on you so long)

I'm not so good with words

And since you never notice

The way that we belong

I'll say it in a love song

And sing it until the day you're holding me

I've wanted you so long but on and on you get me wrong

I more then adore you but since you never seem to see

But you never seem to see

I'll say it in this love song

my latest favourite favourite song! i love it. im a bit outdated but this song's really nice. love it to bits. (: i went NJ. maybe thats too late to mention now since its been such a long time. i was supposed to OFFICIALLY announced that this blog is dysfunctional BUT i decided to keep it since some darLINGS still want me to tell her about my oh so boring life. ohwells. maybe not that boring after all. NJ's been really cool and i've been enjoying myself day after day excluding maths lectures since the lecturer cant teach for nuts. she gets me more confused than in sec 3 with clement tan. what a comfort for him. HE's NOT THE WORST! whee.

so. i played bball today during lunch and i had a real bloody hit by the ball on my oh so unlucky mouth. ahhaahahaha! clement whammed the ball out of kah's hands and the daydreaming renny got the crap (: i'm so fortunate. but oh well. bball's like this i suppose. but it was fun (: yay! gonna play more next week. 05S01 is getting noisier and noisier. hmmm. i wonder why. hahahahah oops.

i miss SN! the guides especially. the reality really hits you when you see the different faces nowadays. no more seeing sam 7 days a week, or catching some sec ones who seem to habour crushes on some special individuals peeking (too obviously) around for HERRR ((((: i wonder who. miss 4hopeclique! its getting a bit sadd. ooh.

BUT BUT bUT. stnicks lost her blue and white and pink! now its all rainbow-y and all. it looks pre-school kindergarten to school us bigg girls man! dunno. but it doesnt strike me as homely as compared to the milder colours of pink and blue. sad. so much for complaining that blue and pink didnt go together in the past. look what happened. it just got worse!!! damn.

the world's fantastically small. im in kenneth foo's GP class. the class is bonkers with edwin. i became -renCI- under his very creative imagination. renci. yeah. the charity show. so he became NKF. wells. he's funny to quarrel with. BUT. he calls me a smurf. hmph. cuz we're in blue and white. well. green and white's like a cucumber right? hahahhaha. lame ol' cucumber.

i've to finally accept the high waisted River Valley uniform, since half of my classmates are from that school. ok. fine. looking at it everyday has gotten rid of my previous not so good impression on their uniform. the RV girls reckon that their uniforms are nice. they like it. oh k. i'm open to all opinions. i'm not the one wearing it (:

i tried on the nanyang uni. chews said i looked awful. ahahah. i guess i grew on the stnicks uni. oh wells. i'm hungry. no more stored energy to waste. (((: till then!

YAY! to darLINGS! love you! for keeping this blog alive. (: i wouldnt have written in this blog if you didnt tell me to.

finally. prelims are over. and now all that's left is the O's. the big great important thing that's gonna bring us yet into another phase of life. the end of schooling in st nicks. not that the school's great or whatever, but i'm gonna miss it. not the school, but the people, of course... some of the food as well. hee. i watched raising helen like... few weeks ago, in the midst of prelims. me and kris cried our hearts out in the almost empty cinema. and sad to say, xian pretended not to know us. HA. the couple sitting at the back of us moved to the other end of the theatre during the advertisments part. hahahah. OK. i know that's our fault lah, because it wasn't even the movie that made us laugh, the advertisments were just so strangely funny that we began to laugh. probably irritated the hell outta them. WE CAN'T HELP IT. SORRY. but it'll happen again. (:

I MISS GUIDES. AND MORNING GLORY. and many many people i love a lot there. like... hmmm. yanhong dear, ling ling, dots. can't remember. hahahaha.

gonna start my intensive study schedule. and therefore, i officially proclaim this blog to be yet another round of two- month- dysfunctional blog. so don't bother checking. this account will probably be stuck here until december. i predict that after O's i won't even have the time to come online to post a decent account of some scruple of my life. too busy catching up on my life that i lost in studying. great. i'm excited. hahahahah.

fell down today. on the hockey pitch. what a decent fall man. right before the day i'm going to the istana to get the PGA. GREAT. and i'll like limp up the stairs to get the prize from mr president. i'm looking forward to the reception actually. food glorious food! wonderful. fruit tarts, cheesecakes! yay!

lalala... my patrol blog is sooooo nice. cheryl's great! must be cux she's a morning glorian. hahahahahh! so bhb eh me.
no more test liao! next week's test, surprisingly only comprises of chem! how exciting! and i can slack for the rest of the bloody week! not bloody lah. haha. will be having a buddhist retreat on thursay to saturday. hahah... so i'll be meditating and stuff in the temple. anyway. i've blogged in the patrol webbie! hahaha

renny :)

think renny's gonna break.
how?
she's trying to be stretched to the limits but I'm not a rubber band...
i'm still a string.
i'll break
when you pull too hard.
i'll bounce back higher when you hit me to the ground
but i'll burst when you do it to hard.

gimme some assurance would you?
i'm not prepared to live through self doubt and misery every day.
i'm not prepared to smile to everyone when i really dun feel like doing that.
i dun wanna cry in front of people and show that i'm a weakling.

lost my way.
my tears blinded my way...

Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall, ooh
Young girl it's alright
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly, ooh

When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants to bother to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just
Trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
You'll learn to begin to
Trust the voice within, ohh

Young girl don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away, ooh ohh
Young girl just hold tight
Soon you're gonna see your brighter day, ohh

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you look outside, look inside to your soul

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just
Trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
You'll learn to begin to
Trust the voice within

Ohh yeah, ooh, yeah ohh

Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know
(Be strong)
You'll break it
(Hold on)
You'll make it
(Be strong)
Just don't forsake it because
No one can tell you what you can't do
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
And like your oldest friend just
Trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
You'll learn to begin to
Trust the voice within

Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall



okk. i'm trying. really.
just went voice lesson today. after like a century ago...
fineee,... i have no chest tone. hahahaha. bleaghs. I think i'm quite retarded to actually take such a long time to find my low tone right. :)

dunno lah. I should be happy cox i'm not the shittiest in voice right? i still that tinge of inferiority there hanging there once in a while. I may laugh it off say i can never go low but i really want to be good at both high and low. I'm that serious towards singing. it has pratically been sorta a vagure guide like what i would like to be next time... i suddenly so serious. hopefully no one reads this. cox renny always smiles right? i know. correct.

What's so depressing about not singing ok right? so stuppppiddddd. why? i also dunnoe. :)

dang.
hahhaa. i saw peter pan's movie advert and i'm so gonna watch it no new zealand or not. and i have this bloody great hunch that i ain't gonna take the tests sceduled for the fist few weeks. heh. I'm gloating. i know. hahahahaha. so bloody happy. but then again. I'm not gonna bring my hopes too high. still gonna study. for my own good wor.

Going m'sia for a week, all renny's frens dun miss me. haha.

Ooooh. that little boy playing peter pan in the movie is like. wow. in caps. his gonna grow up a one bloody hunk. blue eyes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wadahell.

Got my Westside story vol 3. hahahahah. told the shop keeper to call me once it came out. SO NICE... hahahaha. waiting for part 4 now. damn it. do u know how long it is to wait for the next volume to come out? so torturing.. like tony sun! like tony sun! yay.

the memory of me shaking his hand is still alive. replaying in my mind again and again. his like so shuai in real and reel life. wadahell. ren fu. hate him. WHY IS HE SO PRETTY! i'm jealous. when i shook hands with him i almost stretched out my hand to take a handful of his cheeks. to PINCH HIM HARD. SO CUTE. kawaii ne. hahahaha.

Now the bad. bloody hell shit ass. argh. gonna go back to school in like weeks time. wadahell. so not looking forward to it. grrrrrrrrrr. arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh.

YAY! Chinese I's just dammit finished! oosH. oOsh. Oosh. yeah man! whEe. went to watch uptown girls... bloody nice. cried, laughed, cursed. wtf. nice movie.

boo.

haha... its me again! decided to get the chinese lyircs out cox i couldn't even read a crap outta it. wtf. heck...

ehs. hais. studying chinese now. bored like siao so i decided finally to heh... play computer (:

hai. today end of school liao. thought i could have this big damn hibernating thing but guess what. MOE just doesn't seem to favour secondary students like me. i still have O level chinese! how exciting. while everyone not in special starts sleeping late and enjoying the helloutta themselves, all of us are here slogging the shit out of ourselves. ha. bleaghs.

YAY!

heh. another new blog. after like... the few gruelling hours i went through with stupid blogger. bleaghs. buts... everything's ok so i'm happy. heh. hoLidAyS here!